If I screamed would anyone hear me?

I have finally gotten some time to my self, at 1:10 am. Goodness I am feeling a little over whelmed lately. I am feeling like i need to be there for everyone else and never get time to just stop and think. Between the Sienna,the house, church, family and friends. There just isn't time for me. I tried to take a bath tonight, just to have Sienna cry the whole time, and Daniel needed me to get out to help. But on the bright side I read three pages in my new book. Really three pages is a lot with a five month old little girl. Sienna has recently needed just me. I do enjoy how much she wants to be with me. But now it's over whelming, she used to always want Daniel and now if i walk out of the room she cry's, i don't know what to do. And i think i might go crazy not getting to have any time to myself. The only time i seem to have is when Daniel and Sienna are asleep, and I get to sit and read emails, and write back to friends and maybe blog a little. But not getting to sleep until two or three in the morning is already getting old.

I just feel like screaming sometimes. From family problems and taking teenagers to camp, to leading a women's bible study to keeping my house clean, and making my husband happy and spending time with my Lord, I am just feeling a little spread thin. Every moment of the day i need to wear so many hats (mom/wife/daughter/sister/friend/youth leader/cook/maid/ect.) i feel so much weight on my shoulder's.  I know the Lord has a reason for me to be doing all these things that I need to do. I just need more prayer to be able to get it all done. I love all the things I am involved in and I am truly in love with my husband and daughter, but sometimes the world is spinning so fast and there are so many people who need me, I feel like if i screamed no one would notice.

My greatest fear is that if a drop one ball that I am juggling, all of them will crash down. And then I will be a failure to my God, my family and my friends. How can i be everything to everyone, and yet get some time for just be me? I would love a moment where I get to be Laura and just enjoy myself. Not have to solve someone's problem or get something or be somewhere at a certain time. Just hang out with Daniel or a friend and be just Laura. I don't think there really is a answer, but it is my hope the Lord will give me peace, so I can continue to do all the things God has planned for me.

So if anyone reads this keep me in your prayers, to accomplish all the things that matter and to still me Laura.